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i should have been gone long ago [20 Apr 2005|04:58pm] more pictures here: misanthropy__ i am once again directing everyone over to my new livejournal, misanthropy__. there are 93258234234 pictures over there and that is where my 39434 pictures are going from now on. just another post incase you fuckers missed the last one. k that's all.

time for a change buddy. [07 Apr 2005|06:29pm] [ music | faso latido ] infected_hope Date created: 2002-02-27 12:18:20 Journal entries: 575 Comments: Posted: 6,433 - Received: 6,698 that means i've had this livejournal for way too long. misanthropy__ misanthropy__ misanthropy__ misanthropy__ misanthropy__ misanthropy__ misanthropy__ misanthropy__ is where you can find me now. all i ask is that you comment here or there first if you want me to add you. i don't feel like going through my entire friends list picking and choosing. 35 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

now I look in your eyes like I stare at the sun. [04 Apr 2005|11:09am] [ mood | i should have been gone ] [ music | codeseven - roped and tied [on repeat, of course] ] i woke up this morning, early as fuck---- got the essential 'i don't feel like going to class yet' #3 mcdonalds breakfast ---&drove all the way to school, only to find out absolutely no one is there. apparently spring break is two weeks long instead of one. who would have thought? my weekend was uneventful. i worked pretty much the whole time and my feet/legs are absolutely killing me right now. but i made over $300, so the complaining stops here. meanwhile, plane tickets to california are now burning giant holes in my hot little hands. i'm peacing out of this shithole on april 13th for a massive loving life session in corona @ nate and phil's house. then a full week after we get back, it's whatup new jersey with the 2 coolest canadians ever. hot shit, i know. &a few more pictures from last week, since i have photobucket open and all. ( you're acting like a broken record, skipping every track ) 21 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

when you chase the ghost of things that could have been.... [31 Mar 2005|04:20pm] [ music | walk sideways. ] I had an entire entry with lots and lots of pictures from the past couple days, and then my shitty ass DSL got disconnected and I lost everything. I don't feel like re-posting everything. I don't have the time anyhow. Kelly, Rich and I are about to go on quite the adventure and they should be here any minute. Anyway, this is for my Digital Imaging project but I need to re-do it in a different setting and fix Megan. I'm thinking cemetery. Anyway. Apparently Mitch Hedberg died. That's seriously not fucking cool, you guys have no idea how pissed off I am right now. 17 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

THIS IS A VIOLATION [29 Mar 2005|04:06pm] [ mood | so now that your whole world ] [ music | has gone up into flames... ] i'm a thief i'm a thief i'm a thief we discovered these amazing railroad tracks yesterday thanks to japetto. i do believe we're going back today, even though i'm supposed to wait for this dsl tech support guy to call me back because apparently my phone line hates me. uh, i'm also 90% positive i'm going to california sometime in april, followed by a massive loving life session in new jersey. yes. loving so much life. one of these days i'll start taking pictures again. i swear. but stealing them from megan will have to do until that day comes. last night. emily made me a giant cup of time traveling potion. ( random and not so random pictures ) 49 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

And we're all dead now. [21 Mar 2005|09:20pm] [ mood | stand up--------(i wish) ] By Wednesday, I will have accomplished the impossible. That's the plan, at least. I have absolutely no fucking clue how I'm going to pull it off, but I've got to try. That's impossible task number one, to get all my homework done before the end of the semester. Impossible task number two, my friends, is---well, impossible. But that's why I'm calling it the ultimate challenge so we'll have to see how all that works out in the end. So far only one person has guessed it on their own, and three people know because I told them. I just have to lay off the time traveling for awhile. ........and we'll file that under biggest lie of the century. There's no way I can lay off time traveling. Anyway, I'm in class and taking a break from doing my work because I badly badly need one, so I present you, LiveJournal land, with dumb pictures: I absolutely adore Jessica's face in that picture. ( + a few more, just for good measure ) 43 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

::she looks so good in red:: [09 Mar 2005|10:07pm] [ mood | <3 ] Wednesday [almost] down. Thursday to go and then bam, whatup amazing weekend. This is what happens when I don't feel like paying attention in class. I'm in October mode. There is no stopping me<3 I bought a bunch of cool shit the other day that I want to show off but I haven't gotten around to taking pictures yet. They will exist soon enough. In the meantime, Corey just said that our (soon to be) house is connected to a party store, which I find incredible for some reason. ( And for those who haven't seen it.... ) 8 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

I guess she's dying, oh well. [07 Mar 2005|03:03pm] Even with a vest, three hoodies, a long sleeved shirt, a hat and two pairs of gloves(granted I neglected to bring pairs with fingers), I still managed to freeze my fucking ass off. I'm glad I'm not really homeless, although I won't be able to say the same 6 months from now. "I got a call from your math teacher yesterday. She says you were drawing horses in your math book." "Unicorns. They were unicorns." "What?" "Nothing…" 24 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

___________save yourself; [04 Mar 2005|04:47pm] [ music | to drink for 40 days and 40 nights ]                                             On Wednesday, I went here:                                                                                          and rode this:                                                                                          with:                                                                                          ( Sometimes I really like Detroit. ) 26 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

that's just the way it is. [03 Mar 2005|03:03pm] [ music | things will never be the same. ] just a quick flyer i put together while attempting to do homework in the library at school, because everyone seems to be confused about the lineup for tomorrow. there, that's the lineup. see all you assholes tomorrow. 16 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

you set the fire in your own house. [28 Feb 2005|02:02pm] [ music | and the morning dove gets caught in the telephone wire ] What in the mad motherfuck is wrong with these people?! My health insurance was raised $10 a month because I weigh less than 100 lbs. Apparently it's an "unhealthy weight", but fuck that shit. Seriously, that's not cool. Dear Insurance retards, It's called high metabolism, assholes. There's no goddamn way I'm giving you any more of my money because I happen to not be a fatass. I'm calling those bitches up, I'm pissed. 34 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

can you feel that, it takes your breath away. [20 Feb 2005|03:54pm] [ music | i feel like this is going nowhere ] another fantastic weekend had by yours truly. last night i went up to ann arbor (again), and laina and i went to see jonah play at justin bean's house. it was seriously amazing, this big room with tons of kids just sitting on the floor infront of him, totally silent and completely respectful. which was great to see because last time i saw jonah, it was at the shelter and of course, if you play at the shelter the place is going to be filled up with at least 75% assholes and stupid people. but this show was perfect. i don't think i stopped smiling the entire time. i'm a loser, i know, but jonah is amazing. ok, so rewind one day from then and you've got friday. on this day you've got a "beach" party at ricky's with the most amazing people ever. on this day you've also got the best fucking gear sleepover at the coolest house in the world with the funniest people that ever existed (jessica's house, slumber party participants being kelly, jessica, jaclyn, connor, andrew and myself). the only downpoint being, despite plans made at 6am to go out to breakfast at 7am, somehow we all fell asleep and i woke up at 11:30 when i was supposed to be at work by ten. then i had to drive kelly home and i finally made it to work around 1. i'm so surprised they didn't fire me. i wasn't even done with my training yet (today was my last day though, thank god). but i passed all my server tests today, and after a long ridiculous week of training i'm now offically employed at the madison heights red robin. come visit me so you can see the worst waitress ever in action. i promise it'll be fun times. i'll probably spill stuff on you. that's all the words i've got for today. at least in livejournal form, anyway. so once again i've stolen pictures from other people (jaclyn &kelly) because i've become too lazy to take my own and i like eating up other peoples bandwith. this picture is my favourite. and i fucking love these people. i keep saying it but i can't say it enough. why did it take me 19 years to find a group of girls that aren't retarded? ( i pledge allegiance to the gear... ) 45 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

GEARTASTIC xxxxxxx [14 Feb 2005|11:44pm] [ mood | i had the moffatts stuck in my ] [ music | head the whole time i was making these pictures. eh. ] this entry is the result of extreme boredom with too many computers at my disposal. they are stolen from j$$$ and/or megan and are from the various crazy and gear-related events that occured this weekend. if you weren't there, you probably won't think these are as cool as the awesome people that were. perhaps while i'm in class i should do actual work, but i'd much rather create gear masterpeices using the lovely invention of photoshop because my beloved school, IADT, makes it so easy for me to be distracted. onto the gear! ( 1234GEAR56789!!! ) 44 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

every second i'm without you, i'm a mess. [09 Feb 2005|02:24pm] [ mood | she's so lovely ] [ music | high and driving ] laina just sent me this picture, from when i went to visit her at uofm. we were team shlayna in beer pong. that was a fun night. i didn't go to class this morning, for the first time since the semester started. i couldn't bring myself to get out of bed and even if i wanted to, i had a headache that wouldn't allow me to. these next few days are going to be rough. i desperately need distractions, i'd appreciate any i can get. i should invest in some sleeping pills so i can sleep until this doesn't hurt anymore. damn. 8 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

we'll wait for time to turn around. [06 Feb 2005|04:21am] [ music | sunny day real estate - pillars ] words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words drugs words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words drugs words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words words 19 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

I'd break in two over you. [31 Jan 2005|10:25am] [ mood | now you need me, ] [ music | now you don't. ] All I can do is sit here and think about how much faith I've recently lost in the human race. At the risk of sounding disgustingly cliche, I've learned a lot about myself (and others, mind you) in the past couple weeks, and so tonight I'm reaffirming the often overlooked statement and idea that, in the end, the only person you can count on is yourself. And I've always known this, but it's good to realize it every now and then. I've made the mistake of putting my trust in too many people throughout my 19 years of existence. For an awful pessimist, I can be pretty optimistic sometimes. I always seemed to look for the good in people, however hidden, and I believed that no matter what, everyone deserves a second chance. Yeah, it's a nice thought, but let's be realistic here. For the most part, the world is a shitty place and the people in it are even shittier. 98% of people I know are selfish, thoughtless, self-centered backstabbing individuals with more faces than I ever knew existed. People lie and cheat and steal and it's just like second nature to them. So I have to ask myself why on earth I ever tried to convince myself otherwise, and why I felt that it was okay to put my trust in someone else when it's blatantly obvious I'm only going to be let down. Ultimately, it comes down to this: if you tell a little kid not to look in a certain drawer, you better believe that as soon as you turn your back that's the first place he's going to look. If you tell him not to touch a hot stove, you can be certain that he'll have a burned hand or two in no time. And he'll regret it for a second, as the pain of his burnt flesh is almost too much to handle, but he learned something from it and now he knows not to make the same mistake again. You never learn anything about anything unless you find it out for yourself and experience things on your own. You can't go through life just taking other peoples word for shit. That kind of stuff gets you nowhere. So it's funny, because despite my realization that my entire faith in the human race is completely and utterly lost, and people are going to suck no matter how much you want to believe otherwise, I feel a strange sense of contentment right now. I feel like at this point, I'm prepared for anything, and that's a good feeling. I feel like I know more about myself right now than I ever did before. But I have to ask one thing, which is why I decided to post this entry in my public journal as opposed to ___prettypistol, even though the two ideas hardly seem to relate to one another: At the end of the day, what did Holden really accomplish? This question is not rhetorical, and I'd like an answer from anyone who even remotely knows that they're talking about. "I'm only human." "How come people only say that when they've done something wrong?" ---The United States of Leland. A movie that, more often than not, I find myself relating to. If you haven't seen it yet I really don't know what you're waiting for. 19 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

if you were here, things would be more magical. [26 Jan 2005|09:08pm] [ music | people talking, that's all. ] I come into class today only to find out that my teacher is sick and class is cancelled, which is information I would like to have been privy to BEFORE I rushed like hell to make it here ontime (since I'm always late). Ah well, all that means is I have the weekend to re-write my god awful paper (which I probably won't do, but it's a nice thought) and two hours to kill before my next class. I went on a journey to find the library and decided I might as well do something semi-productive instead of the usual feeding of my Myspace addiction, so I made a dorky collage of pictures of David and I. I'm now in my last class (Digital Imaging) and bored (as usual), so here it is. Don't make fun of me. 41 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

Two posts in one day. I'm sweet. [22 Jan 2005|07:13pm] [ mood | i can't take my eyes off you... ] [ music | Damien Rice - The Blowers Daughter ] This song makes me cry.... . 15 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

into the cracks where fall and winter collide ; i surrender. [22 Jan 2005|03:12pm] [ mood | not the best of moods, but.. ] [ music | the shins - girl on the wing ] "I recently decided on a fitting analogy for love. Love is handing someone a gun and hoping they don't shoot you. Which isn't just some emo nonsense, I think we can all agree it's true. When you truly love someone, you give them the ability to hurt you terribly. You place an immense trust in them and hope it is not unreturned. You stand in front of the firing squad and smile at them, while they have their weapons at the ready." so I'm obsessed with the writings of a one Natalie Hurdle. I always knew she was an incredible writer but then I went to her LiveJournal looking for a post I remembered reading awhile back (the one I quoted above) and started reading and, I'm pretty sure I read the whole damn thing. Maybe it's just the mood I'm in that attracted me to it the most, but I've come to the conlcusion that she needs to write a million books (and I need to read them all) or I'm going to kill her for wasting her talent. Anyway, with all that creepy adoration aside (sorry, I couldn't help it): I'm going up to Ann Arbor in a little while to visit Laina, as soon as the roads clear up a bit because currently, they are fucking awful. And it's probably not the best idea to drive so far with them like this, but I need distractions and I need my Laina. So hopefully I don't die, because---well---I'm not that miserable yet. PS: THIS is going to be the shit. 8 lipstick killers ; catch me before i kill more

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